as i embark on my 25th lap around the sun, i find myself navigating who i am and what i want to do with a noticeable uptick in confidence compared to my previous years. yet, i must confess, there are moments when i’m overwhelmed by the notion that I should be achieving far more. it’s a sentiment many of us share in this era, whether spurred by generational perfectionism, the relentless american work ethos, or my own perfection-seeking spirit. i'm eager to connect and share with those who might resonate with these reflections.
here’s what you can expect:
i will not guarantee to provide content on x day or x time !! i am a creative. it ebbs and flows. i will post a lot - i promise! but setting a deadline for content like that is not my nature. however, i love others that do it because it is fun to have something to look forward to that is reliable. i am reliable !!! just a little adhd
i’d like to get super vulnerable on here. i have tried to do so on tiktok, instagram etc. but it has never clicked. for some reason i feel pulled to substack to get into the nitty gritty of it all. i feel way more comfortable over here? i’ve been through my fair share of shit (haven’t we all) and i have learned so much from every experience.
interests: surfing, vintage gold jewelry, hot chocolate americano, wellness practices, yoga, self help books, getting overly excited about things, eco friendly swaps & sustainability where i can find it, connecting with real humans, showing up as you are, working hard, playing a LOT, feeling big emotions, & so much more.
i think i like my substack name - it feels very me. but i also want love you, bye to be a place where my community can ask questions / ask for advice & that way we can interact! from summer bikini recommendations to real, deep life stuff. i’d like to have a name for this??? do we have any ideas out there?
a girls gotta yap
sun queen
on my way
it’s not that deep
about me:
i grew up in a lovely little bubble of norcal. i swam competitively through college at uc san diego (this was my life & all i knew), i gave up my entire social identity to swim & it really sucked & i got super burnt out. went through some major ED’s, heart breaks, personal failures, friendship failures. all of which i am trying to learn from and grow from and move the fuck past from. but i am an empath so i cling and hold onto my emotions and others emotions too… i find myself in a funky transitional period where i am kind of relearning who i am, who i want to be, and how i want to show up in this little life. & i find that it is more fun to do that with a community who is also just trying to figure out life as a 20 something.
i currently reside in oahu, hawaii and have been here for about three years. i surf every pretty much every day, balance it out with yoga, love a hot girl walk and in general, live a very simple & relaxed lifestyle. i truly do not take any day on the water for granted. the ocean is my happy place. i never saw myself living this life but i feel so so so lucky.
i am looking forward to building a fun and welcoming community on here! pls join ask questions and let’s make this a fun space for 20 yr old girly pops to feel, grow, learn, laugh, cry, and celebrate together.
Nice to meet you!